By Rachel Mohr Frugé
I have to confess I find knowing God and being fully known by Him at times hard to grasp. I wonder what Enoch’s life looked like on a daily basis (Gen 5:23-4, Heb 11:5). I struggle to understand true intimacy with people not to mention intimacy with the perfect King of the universe.
Yet, we have a Father who fully knows us and cultivates intimacy with his creation. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows (Matt 10:29-31).
We have a Savior who understands our experiences. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need (Heb 4:15-16).
About six weeks ago now, I was finished working for the day. My two-year old daughter invited me to sit on the couch with her. She asked me to take off my glasses and remove my pony tail holder. She took off my shoes and went and got a blanket to put over me and snuggled under it beside me as we faced each other. She looked into my eyes while touching my hair and face and kissed me as only a two-year old can. We were so close we shared the same breath. She breathed in and sighed. Her face was the only thing I was focused on. I looked away. She reached up, grabbed my chin, and pulled my face back to hers. She began conversing with me in her own way, talking with me about my day and saying from time to time, “mommy, I love you.” And every time I looked away, she reached up and pulled me back to that space again. I’m not certain how long we sat like this. It both felt like time stopped and also passed too quickly. That still, small voice I have come to know as the Lord’s said something I have been thinking about since, He whispered, “intimacy with me is like this moment, it’s about what I do.” My eyes filled with tears and do again as I remember.
I’ve held both this experience with my daughter and those words from my Father like Mary, pondering them in my heart, thinking of them often and asking the Lord to bring clarity and change to my heart and mind. Here are a few things that I have reflected on that I invite you to think about too.
Rachel serves as the Minister to Family Life at The Vine Lutheran Church in Grapevine, Texas and as Interim Executive Director at LINC North Texas. She and her husband Brennan, their two children, and two dogs live in the home with a yellow door. Email Rachel at email@example.com.